In church yesterday there was a question asked,”would you die for someone that you love?”
I am shy enough in big groups that I do not always say what I would like to say. I have an interesting perspective on this question.
Many years ago, through a dream, God taught me about death and its imapact on us. In this dream I died. I was killed trying to run from evil. That interesting part about this dream was the death. When I died I realized not only was I still very much alive but very much me. Even to the point that I finished the thought process I was having when I died. As I died I was thinking to myself, how dare he kill me. The sentence was started before death and ended after death. Through the dream I learned that the intelligence that is us remains, in the whole part, still us. I was still me in every way. Every rebellious and snide remarking part of me was still intact. My personality was still very much the same. Our bodies that we live in here on earth truly are not who we are. The essence of our being continues on. This has continued to be taught to me after the passing of my son. The knowledge that he is very much alive and living the life that God has planned for him has been given to me.
Now for the question, “would you die for someone you love?” It is a very easy thing, when in distress as a parent, to want to take that away from your child. If someone were holding a gun to your child’s head I think any parent would jump in front of that bullet without any hesitation. Even knowing death holds no terror, I would still do it without hesitation. For my family in distress I would also do this. This is easy, to die for someone you love I find an easy question to answer. Now to die for someone you don’t love or know is a harder question. To jump in front of that bullet for a stranger, that I think you can only be answered in the moment. Some people would and some would not.
A harder question, in my opinion, would be, “Can you live without someone you love?” This is a much harder question. Sometimes people find it impossible to live without the person they love. Sometimes people choose to end their life or to simply not live their life. By not living their life I mean to sit in a chair and do nothing. I had a great Aunt who did this after her son passed. She wouldn’t eat, sleep, live. She knew nothing of God or an after life. After living like this, and being very close to death herself, her son appeared to her and told her he was still alive and ok. After that she was fine and lived the rest of her days. To live without someone you love, especially with no knowledge of life after death, can be very difficult. Some find it impossible.
For me, after my son died the sprit of God was with me so strong that I could not even be sad. Now before he died, when we were trying to save him, I was devastated!!!!!! Watching him there on his bed affected my whole being. After he passed and I knew there was no hope, I was calm and happy. I knew where he was and what he was doing. To this day I have yet to shed one tear over his death, not of sorrow. I feel peace beyond words and a thankfulness for the knowledge I have been given.
To sum it all up, to die for my loved ones is easy, to live without my loved ones is only accomplished through the power and knowledge of God. I find death only sad when I know they do not believe in God. Life without God is truly the hardest thing one will ever have to do. I have replaced the word death, in my life, with they have traveled on. For surely this is truly what happens. To die is easy to live is much more difficult!!!!
A stay at home mom 